Changing For The Better

I have been ill again. Every other week I seem to be getting something.

And I am getting a little fed up with it to be honest.

I am busy which is great, but there are a few stressful things that are happening too.

But more than anything I need to sort out my health, and my diet!

I haven’t eaten, well or properly for a long time. I don’t think I have really eaten well since I had Rhianna. I don’t eat healthy, to eat three meals in one day is a miracle. To eat my five fruit and veg is even more of a miracle. But I am suddenly realising, that actually I need to be healthy.

I need to be healthy for me, for Mr L, for Baba and for any future children in our lives but mainly for me.

I am silently, quietly ruining myself.

I have a slow burning addiction to junk food, and chocolate and it needs to stop.

Since having Baba I have stayed the weight that I put on and I have literally been in maternity clothes since I was pregnant with Rhianna last year! A whole year later and I haven’t changed. And I will be honest I hate it.

I hate it all.

I look at myself in the mirror and I hate it.

I only have a selection of clothes that fit and I hate them all. It makes me so unhappy and something needs to be done.

Some switch needs to be clicked and something needs to change!

So I am going to start a journey, I am not sure where, or how or what yet but something needs to happen that’s for sure!