Hello

Well hello

I am still here, I am still not sure what to do with this here little space of mine, I feel it needs a direction but I am not sure what type of direction it needs.

And to be honest it is really buggy me.

It is the reason I am not really blogging as I am blocking myself from blogging as I don’t know what I want to blog about.

Shall I do more crafts, less children, more writing, more Rhianna Lily, more baby loss, more me.

I just don’t really know.

I too and fro with what to write and what not to write.

Maybe the blog needs a little refresh.

Maybe it needs a new look.

I don’t know.

But I do miss it.

I really miss it.

And I want to blog again.

It makes me happy to blog.

It makes me happy to write.

And I know after not doing it for a long time, that I need it.

I need to write, I need to blog, I need to create, vent, rant and grieve all in one place.

So that is decided I can’t give this up.

I have noticed my mood has changed massively since I haven’t been blogging.

I need it, it was my saviour with Rhianna, it was what I needed and I really wouldn’t be where I am now if I didn’t have it.

So that decision is made, I will not be giving it up. A couple of weeks ago I was debating it and was thinking of leaving it just sitting here doing nothing but I can’t do that its my baby and it has my boys highlights, and Rhianna’s whole life in it.

Now I just need to decide what direction it needs to take and where it will go!

If anyone has any ideas on that, that would be great!