Rhianna’s Journal
I am a girl that buys a diary every year, with full intentions of keeping a journal. I have loads where a couple of pages are written. But then I stop by February. I have one that is complete. It has been filled in every …
Rhianna Lily’s Story
Rhianna’s Stillbirth and Us
We knew that Rhianna had died, three days before she was born, so we knew what we were doing when we went into hospital and into the delivery suite, because we and the midwives knew what has happening, we were taken to a room slightly …
After a Baby Dies
A couple of days ago I was involved in a twitter chat with a lot of lovely woman about what happens, and the support you get when your baby dies in the UK. I then read Jennie’s post on Bereavement Support After A Baby Dies and …
Our Only Time
Following on from Rhianna Lily’s Birth Part Two… I woke periodically throughout the night, either with midwife checks, or the nebulizer being put back on as my breathing was bad. Every time it was the same, look to the right to see Mr L who …
Rhianna Lily’s Birth Part Two 23/03/2012
This post has taken me a long time to write, I have thought about it a lot, I think about this near on every day but writing it down has been hard. But something that I have wanted to do, needed to do. Part One …
Rhianna Lily’s Birth Part One 23/03/2012
Today we were all awake early, at first we all just laid there. Mr L decided to get Baba ready for school and I walked around the house in a daze. It was very hard to pack a bag for today. After all packing a …
The Waiting 22/03/2012
Last night was a weird night, Baba was at Mr L’s mum’s as we didn’t want to upset him by suddenly taking him away from there when he knew that he was supposed to be staying. So it was just Mr L and myself. And …
The First Day In Hospital 21/03/2012
I didn’t sleep last night, I tossed and turned all night. Baba crawled into our bed in the early hours and for the first time I just left him there. I just watched him sleep and just cried. I felt so numb, but so bad …
The Dull 20/03/2012
Telling people that your baby has died is probably the hardest thing we have ever done. I remember making the phone calls to relatives and friends when my Nan and Gran died, and I managed to keep it together for those few minutes. I knew …
The Daze 20/03/2012
I always thought I understood grieve, I had lost a couple of people when I was young, as in a child young and it was just something had happened. I experienced grieve for the first time when my aunt died when I was 15 it …