Life Without Rhianna Lily

One Decoration…

One Decoration…

Christmas is so hard when you have a child missing.  So hard. This year I am really finding it difficult and have already had a wobble about missing Rhianna and we are only on day five. One thing that I think is evident in everything […]

Remembering Rhianna at Christmas

Remembering Rhianna at Christmas

It’s a hard thing to work out, remembering your daughter in heaven at Christmas. It is something we change most years. Something we struggle with every year. Over the years we have had Santa leave a balloon, go visit her grave, not go visit her […]

Remembering Rhianna

Remembering Rhianna

When Rhianna died one thing I was really worried about was people not remembering Rhianna, that only myself and her daddy would make an effort to remember her.  I have been proved wrong so many times when it comes to the boys.  Only last week […]

A Bad Time Of Year

A Bad Time Of Year

This time of year is never that easy having one child in heaven and two here. It is a busy time of year for us with all of us having birthdays and then just the general hustle and bustle of Christmas. Having them both in […]

When Grief Hits

When Grief Hits

October is always a bit of a rough month. It is Babyloss Awareness Month, it is Babyloss Awareness Week and it is BBs birthday. There are always so many emotions in October. Every year I start the Capture Your Grief Project and every year I […]

Rhianna’s Journal

Rhianna’s Journal

I am a girl that buys a diary every year, with full intentions of keeping a journal. I have loads where a couple of pages are written. But then I stop by February. I have one that is complete. It has been filled in every […]

A Peace Lily For Rhianna Lily

A Peace Lily For Rhianna Lily

Yesterday was our fourth wedding anniversary. We always do something for our anniversary, this year we are doing something tomorrow instead of yesterday. However we don’t actually do presents and due to us just having been away this year we definitely weren’t buying presents. But […]

Grief

Grief

One thing I hate about grief is the unpredictability of it. You can never tell when it will hit. You can never predict when you won’t be ok. And you really live your life on the edge of a cliff for the rest of your […]

Initials

Initials

I have a big thing about initials Looking around our house we have initials of BB, Rhianna and Boo around the house. I am not sure if its something that I would have done if all three of them where here on earth all together, […]

The Final Goodbye

The Final Goodbye

No one should bury their child! No one should stand at a graveside and watch their child’s coffin be lowered into the ground! 6 years ago we did just that. We stood and watched. Watched the tiniest grave be filled by the tiniest coffin. No […]