When Tito got diagnosed with cancer on the 25th February 2014 we got told with pallative care as long as he was happy he could last another two weeks to another few months.

The vet said it was very unlikely he would go in his sleep but that we would get the look. I remember walking out the vets that day wondering what on earth this look was as so many people said it to me.

Twelve days later I understood.

It was the weekend and Titos appetite had got less and less despite having an injection on the Friday to try to increase it.

He was really tired, we had really wanted to take him to the beach that weekend but we knew it would be a selfish visit he just wanted to sleep.

He pottered off to his bed later in the day on the Sunday and he happened to turn around and looked at me.

It was a look I had never seen before.

Tito always had sorrowful eyes, but this was different.

This was the look!

It was sorrowful, pleading, begging.

It was a look of please let me go.

It was I’ve had enough please let me go.

He was ready and it made me instantly cry.

I wasn’t ready but he was and later in the day he gave the same look to Mr L.

He asked he wanted to go

We knew we had to not be selfish and do this for him.

The Monday we booked his appointment, the 10th March 2014. I told him and I swear he looked relieved.

Late afternoon early evening Baba said goodbye, Boo had a lay on him and we dropped the boys at Nannies. First off all I didn’t want to be there, then I just wanted to be there for his sedation. In the end I stayed for his last breath.

Holding him, hugging him, and him inbetween Mr L and I, like he had laid all his life.

Neither of us wanted to let him go but we had to it was just so unfair that it was so soon six was way to young.

The last few months have been really hard. Tito was a unique boy and one that can’t be replaced. He was our boy, our first baby and we miss him so much.

The house is full of him, and it is hard not having him here.

Yesterday we received a gorgeous present from some fellow beagle owners one that made all of us smile. A present that brought back many memories.

It made us cry, it made us smile and it made Tito come alive again. It made us stop and remember and smile at the memories.

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8 thoughts on “The Gallery: Memories

  • May 21, 2014 at 3:40 pm

    Awww bittersweet story. I have dogs in our house in Manila, Philippines. A lot actually and the things is they go and its sad and you can only hold on to the good memories they left and gave you. Lovely post. #TheGallery

    • May 23, 2014 at 10:45 am

      It is so sad, they leave a massive hole in your heart, but a head of beautiful memories xx

  • May 21, 2014 at 4:31 pm

    I am not looking forward to the day we have to say goodbye to our beloved Beagle, such a lovely breed xxx

    • May 23, 2014 at 10:38 am

      They really are complete and utter pains but gorgeous still xxx

  • May 21, 2014 at 7:26 pm

    Aw Kerry, you had my blubbing at this. Before Baxter, I would not have understood this love, the love for a dog, a pet, one of the family, but now I do. Thanks to Baxter. It is different to the love I have for Keagan. Naturally. But it is a love. I’m pleased you receive such lovely gifts and that you keep Tito forever with you in your memories. I hope I too can act in the right manner when I get that look from Baxter. Take care lovely xx

    • May 23, 2014 at 10:37 am

      So sorry I made you cry, you will know, you love him that means you will know. xxx

  • May 21, 2014 at 8:00 pm

    The look, I remember it well from letting my 19 year old cat go – not pleasant. Lovely friends though aren’t they #ThePhotoGallery

    • May 23, 2014 at 10:26 am

      It’s horrible isn’t it, and something you only understand when you have seen it x


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